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Not So Clear
04:14
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It’s funny how lost we can feel when things seem to be right in order
You took away that stable ground from me
There’s a lot of emotions to feel and I wanna pick the right one
But too many fit the mold, the tension is slowly rising
I am angry, so mad, now I’m just indifferent
I’ve gotten used to this by now
I’m trying to contemplate all the things you said to me
I’m starting to realize that maybe it’s just better this way
It took a second to realize what should’ve been so clear
Though we may seem well together, maybe it’s time to disappear
I’ve been going back and forth inside my head
A waiting game you’ve always played
Never understood just how it ends
Tonight there’s a weightless light
You don’t even know how we found it
Oh you don’t even know if we found it
When I’m stuck in place I’m moving all the time
Fucking exhausted as I’m gaining debt
You’ve given me heart attacks with the crazy things you say
You’re calling every single shot, are you playing god?
Oh I can never, I can never tell
Remember how we used to be when we were together?
Things mostly fit right in place, oh balanced as ever
It seems to me that maybe we just overlooked our flaws
Maybe we knew this was gonna happen all along
Was this happening all along?
I’m still trying to contemplate all the things you said to me
I’m starting to realize that maybe it’s just better this way
It took a second to realize what should’ve been so clear
Though we may see well together
Maybe we do still fit together
I don’t wanna figure this out forever
Maybe the truth is not so clear
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2. |
Cleansing
03:35
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Calculating all of the ways you can fall
Living life knowing there’s nothing at all
you can do about how you’re gonna get there
I’ve watched the world move from your point of view
A never ending chase that leaves yourself running in place
I’ve never felt these pulses in my body they are racing
I’m looking in your eyes and I see myself retracing
How I ended up to be so fortunate and fine
Surrounded by knowledge and love all the time
I try to write down thoughts of doubt and regret
All I’ve sang about is a life filled with debt
Endless lines all about how to figure out
a way to suppress all the doubts
So I’ve been trying to find my own words to live by
I’ve spent this time just looking at the sky
Seeing shades of blue and I’m feeling it too
The portrait we paint’s not a permanent view
I’ve spent a lot of time trying to find myself a high
a way to be able to simplify
all these lingering memories of complexity
But now I’ve never felt these pulses in my body they are racing
I’m looking in your eyes and I see myself retracing
How I ended up to be so fortunate and fine
Surrounded by knowledge and love all the time
I’m looking for some metaphors, a way to show what I live for
How can I describe these inconsistencies I feel?
I mostly see a brighter way, I believe that it’s okay
to feel content
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Forevermore
04:11
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I let you in to become my core
the part of me that I live for
My life feels stable and secure
A cleansing feeling of something pure
Your only goal is to create
a way to rehabilitate
a mind that traveled to and fro
content with living as a shadow, as a shadow
A careless wanderer feeling at ease
as the load on my back feels a sense of relief
A journey I’ve felt wear down my bones
But now I live free knowing I have grown
Into a person fulfilled just to know, loving is better than being alone
Lying here I feel my roots taking a hold
with no sign of a ceiling, together revealing a paradise of our own
Though atmospheres do change and weather takes a toll
Through the rain and the clouds I know that I have found a way to settle the storm, forevermore
Endless daydreams when you’re not around
race through my mind in this bitter cold town
Sometimes I wonder if stability, is securing or constricting
I tell myself that the latter must be true, after all I put my trust in you
A trust in knowing that when there are doubts, if they linger I can pick them out
But your loyalty never subsides
So with that I will let you be my guide
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Lifted
03:38
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I’ve been writing songs in my head
of all of the things that I could have said
If I let my doubts speak for me
Telling my mind what it needs to believe
How can I know the difference between
a fleeting thought or a permanent belief?
I’ve got Sprained Ankle on repeat
as I’m trying to find the difference between the two
I just want to find something to say
But I don’t know what makes sense to me these days
Fragments of thoughts flying way up high
Out my sight, out of my mind
I’ve been looking at life through a microscope
Feeling too close, I gotta let go
Let go of the tension that’s squeezing too hard
Life is better when you stop counting scars, look for the stars
I used to pre-plan my every move
Always finding a way to improve
It left me with a stomach full of fear
Never knowing what was gonna be near
It took a long time for me to let go
of the anxiety that was tied to me
Now I’m free to live and grow
I’ve been exploring the depths of my soul
Attempting to find out what makes me whole
All I’ve learned is it changes and flows
As the days drag on all I know is I was made for you
and you were made for me
And maybe all that I want is to tell you how much that means
Fragments of thoughts flying way up high
Oh I just wanna know why
Fragments of thoughts flying way up high
Out my sight, out of my mind
I’ve been looking at life through a microscope
Feeling too close, I gotta let go
Let go of the tension that’s squeezing too hard
Life is better when stop counting scars
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5. |
Skipping Stones
04:15
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It seems you’re waiting for the ground to fall through,
A heavy burden that’s been hurting you
A change of pace is your favorite fix,
looking for substance or a thought that sticks
All the boundaries you built up are strong
and I’ve been waiting for the day they’re gone
So I can tell you what I truly believe,
That I will feel much better when you start to see
The way you pace yourself leads to destruction
I won’t follow you through all your pointless interruptions
You’re standing there skipping stones
waiting for the bounce that makes you sink down low
I know your struggles and your pain are real
And I am sorry that you have to deal
with setbacks, road blocks, and countless dead ends
I wanna be there, I wanna be your friend
I never wanted you to fall so hard
But I don’t know how to heal your scars
And when I look at you all I really see
are all of the things that you took from me, you took from me
You’ve never really kept your story straight
Telling tales about how you’ll create
A sense of balance in your frazzled mind
You always say that you just need time
Every beginning never follows through
As you apologize for all the things you do
I don’t know how much more I can endure
After all I’m only 24
I’ve spent this year trying to figure out
Your jumbled mind and endless doubt
But what I’ve come to learn is this
I just don’t know how to call it quits
I’ve gained patience but I don’t believe
that I’ve allowed myself to grieve
Give me a while so I can decide
If what we have is worth my time
Is it worth my time?
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