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Stagnant
03:40
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I picture wide open spaces as a way to get through
These ever crowding forests that give me these claustrophobic views
Beaten down on empty, I'm trying to find some time to rebuild and refuel
It gets harder every day, to find the words to say that maybe I’m long overdue
For a change of pace, away from these static tunes
I’ve been painting a picture of memories and false implications
Trying to find the palettes that go with my new realization
I don’t wanna feel stagnant, or think about what ifs and why
After all what is life if it’s anything but a surprise?
Wasting minutes finding something that feels soothing but new
I’m trying to get away, from all of my mistakes that I never saw my way through
I’m looking outside my window through fogged up lenses, trying to get control of my whacked out senses
I want clarity, a reason for me
To feel satisfied with the thought of uncertainty
Everyday shows me the challenge I am facing
Lately I’ve been feeling like I’m not so good at pacing
myself as I ponder of all I can be
Now I know that there still a chance to grow
Dug my roots up so everyone could know
all the routes I took showed me what I could be
Now I’m just thankful that I’ve been on this journey
Every wrong turn has shown me there’s always a second beat
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2. |
Optimist
04:32
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I wanna see the colors that you see
how they shine so vibrantly
reflecting the way you look at your life
how you feel so satisfied
knowing that these hard times come and go
and when they're gone, we'll have a chance to grow
The optimist in me is wearing thin
but it'll grow when we begin
to analyze the darker shades of mine
and how yours tend to intertwine
Even when the path is fogged and cold
what I know is you're the one who will let me know
With the way things are going I am gonna make it out
Of the jumbled web inside my head (I'm gonna make it, I'm gonna make it out)
As I take a deep breath oh I breathe it out
All the negativity I see floats away whenever you're with me
I see the way the downward slope can start
it takes over this wounded heart
Oh inside of my chest I feel the weight relieve
as you show me a way to breathe
in a way where I'll feel complete
No longer seeing all the ways, I seem to have gone astray
Nothing here is definitive, everything here is infinite
Oh please just let me know
I crawled my way to make it to the top
of this hill I've spent my whole life, building up
You were there to show, me the way to go
To make sure that I always find my way home
to brighten the path so I could see the holes
I won't be distracted by ways to fall down
You're always there to keep me alive and now
I am stronger than, I was back then
and I have you to thank for that
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Buzzing
03:22
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I felt it spiral again
the locked up thoughts have all fled oh I wanna pretend
that I've got a grip on them
the way you looked inside my soul
I knew that I just had to go away
just to hear you say it'll be okay
you said we're always okay
It's like a thousand bugs around my head
the buzzing never seems to end
there may be pauses and moments of peace for me
I just don't think you wanna believe
I don't know if things will get better
I can't feel this way forever
I feel the instability inside
of my cluttered mind so I don't know how to find
the stable ground that used to reside
below my feet as I wander through life
now as my feet sink into the ground
I have no idea how to dig myself out
I'm so weighted down
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Perspective
04:00
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I’ve found a way to pick things apart till they’re broken
Shattered remnants of something we used to believe in
But now I stand here looking around at the trees
Seeing memories of who I used to be
Let the leaves fall down so I can find absolution
I’m waiting for the day when the silence breaks
A thunder in the clouds makes my bones shake
I’m looking for a change of pace
maybe I’m just wired this way
Like an hourglass I see that time has passed
But I have never really made the minutes last
An ending is always near
I gotta live life without a fear
I’ve seen you tied up in ropes your entire life (You’ve been tied down, so tied down)
You’ve become accustomed to friction and hurting
and so I’ve learned to believe that being trapped is a state of mind
Nothing has to tear you down, no need for a meltdown
All this worrying leads to nothing at all
I’m waiting for the day when the silence breaks
A thunder in the clouds makes my bones shake
I’m looking for a change of pace
maybe I’m just wired this way
Like an hourglass I see that time has passed
But I have never really made the minutes last
An ending is always near
I gotta live life without a single fear
I built my roots so deep that I can’t seem to dig them up
A constant reminder, wherever I wander I always go back to the start
I built my roots so deep that I can’t seem to dig them up
A constant reminder, wherever I wander I always go back to the start
All this stability, allowed me to see
That I just need to find myself a change of scenery
I’m waiting for the day when the silence breaks
A thunder in the clouds makes my bones shake
I know I’m looking for a change of pace
but maybe I’m just wired this way
Like an hourglass I see that time has passed
But I have never really made the minutes last
Though an ending is always near
it isn’t always so clear
What matters is I made it here
living my life without these useless fears
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5. |
Pleasing to Please
05:00
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Appeasing isn't pleasing anymore
It's doing more harm than good
I used to concede to your thoughts and your needs
For fear of rejection, a need for affection
Hide my thoughts in scattered places
a way to avoid your disappointed faces
Just take my mind and my soul, an attempt to feel, feel whole
a way to feel a whole lot better
The shadow I was casting kept growing without control
Taking in memories from when I felt so alone
Now I'm flying over the dark and rainy clouds
I thought I'd never figure it out
I'm learning how to shine a light on paths I've never known
so many ways to find my home
I try and grasp the ebb and flow of life
It seems to be out of my sight
I sense it in my veins in my heart and my brain
the fog that surrounds me, will clear up some day
Days feel longer with these ever changing moods
Moods that conflict with my point of view
Viewing my life from outside, outside my own body
I'm learning to thrive
My center of gravity changes as time goes by
I feel the ground shift as I'm starting to drift through the tide
My confidence in what I perceive is wearing thin
I can see through it, it's bullshit I knew it all along
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6. |
Revelation
04:10
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I see you standing before me, giving all that you can
Singing these words that show me you’re hurt from attempting to take a stand
Your anguish makes me know that I can heal
It gives me insight on this pain that I feel
Though I can’t grasp all the passing thoughts
I just have to find out which ones make me feel less lost in my head
there is nonsense and words left unsaid
About how I'll thrive and how I’ll survive through the changes and lingering debt
I hear about your positivity
Makes me sure that you can break free
from the binds that you previously had
Show me just show me
Oh what a revelation
Oh what a relief
A fresh glance as the fog clears In my head I see
The clarity that you gave me
He is the one he is the one that I see
When my eyes close I know I believe
I believe I believe
A glimpse from your world makes me want a release
From the lack of confidence in the words that I speak
I hear what you say and it makes me realize
That every line I’ve ever wrote makes me wanna run and hide
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